My heart really is so full of gratitude right now.
As I've been reflecting back on this week and the countless miracles and spiritually strengthening experiences that have happened, I can't help but feel happy and thankful(: I love the Lord, I love my amazing companion, and I love being a full time missionary!
We had some amazing lessons this week. We met with Elizabeth, and she honestly has such a pure heart. She read the chapter in the Book of Mormon that we left for her, and she even highlighted a favorite verse. She is so prepared, and I'm praying that she will receive the answers that she needs. I know she will as she continues to seek for the truth(: we also met with Becca and Russ, Cassie and Zach, and the Cadwalladers. All of them are striving to do what is right and what will bring them true and lasting happiness. That has been a really beautiful thing to see, because you can tell that little by little, they are changing. And that's what this gospel is all about(:
We got to have a lesson with the Hoflund family on the Restoration. It was really powerful. Cash was taking notes and it was the cutest thing ever. Bobbi Sue and Clint are both so wonderful. She's been so sick lately, and he's been having some hard stuff happen as well, but instead of letting it get them down, they've been using it as a chance to rely on the Lord more, and I think that says a lot about the kind of people they are. I love that family with all my heart. I don't think I'll ever be able to fully express how much they mean to me.
|"Just another day in the Hoflund home!" (:|
We had exchanges and I got to spend the day in Lusk with Sister Danz. I love Sister Danz so much. She's one of the sweetest people I know. I got to meet a lady named Carrie while we were doing service. She reminded me so much of my Nana, it was a tender mercy(: We also had MLC this week, and guess who's an STL now?? Sister Jenson!!(: it was so great to give her a big hug. I just love her and have missed her so much. She's awesome.
General Conference was amazing. I received so much revelation not only for myself but for the people here in Casper that we are striving to help come unto Christ. I learned so many things that I can improve not only to be a better full time missionary, but also to be a more consecrated disciple of Christ and better person as a whole. Seeing President Monson deliver his address was powerful. Even though he was weak, the Lord provided him with the strength to finish his talk. I am truly amazed at the power behind this man, this prophet of God. He gives all that he has, including his physical strength, to the Lord. I am thankful for his example.
|"Me and Sister Jenson!" (:|
The Holy Ghost touched my heart during a lot of the talks, but especially during Elder Stevenson's. When he talked about feeling inadequate, I could totally relate, as I'm sure we all can. I don't know how many times I have felt like I'm just not strong enough, not smart enough, not good enough, to do what the Lord has asked of me or to press forward through the hard things in life. As Elder Stevenson talked about President Monson looking him in the eyes and saying, "The Lord will always qualify those whom He calls,", I imagined the Savior looking me in the eyes, with love and understanding in His face. I could almost hear Him say, "I will always qualify you for what I have called you to do. Just trust me,".
This took my thoughts to one of my favorite talks, President Uchtdorf's, when he said, "We don't need to be more of anything to start to become the person God intended us to become. God will take you as you are - at this very moment - all you need is a willing heart and a desire to believe and trust in the Lord,".
This week, lots of things happened that I didn't feel qualified to handle. However, as I spent lots of time on my knees in fervent and pleading prayer to my Heavenly Father, I was given the words to say, the actions to take, and the thoughts to cultivate in the times where I needed it most. I know that God loves us, I know that He speaks to us if we are willing to ask and really listen, and I know that He loves us for who we are, today. He will help us be better. He will help us be happier. We just have to trust in Him.
The scripture that I'm "ponderizing" this week is 2 Nephi 31: 3. It talks about the plainness and simplicity of the gospel, and about how the Lord will speak to us in a way we understand. How thankful I am for the ability and privilege to receive answers and counsel from the One who loves me more than I will ever comprehend. How thankful I am for the fact that He takes me as I am, and strengthens me to become who He knows I can become.
|"We finally found a Russian Olive tree.....in our backyard!!" (:|
I love all of you. Thank you to everyone who sent me videos and emails for my one year mark!!
I am thankful for your prayers and support.
Love, Sister Allen(: